My daughter and I were having a delicious lunch on this sunny spring day.
Surrounded by beauty, and the serenity of the moment, the conversation flowed peacefully. All was going well. I was delighted to have precious moments with my youngest child, UNTIL!!! somehow the talk turned to God.
The serenity and peace went away, and the attack began.
Among many things I heard how I am one sided and not opened to deviate from what I believe to be true from a book that has been changed and translated many times. And in any case what I believe about God and salvation is only my opinion. There are many Christian denominations and all differ.
I was also reminded that she keeps all the commandments except one so that makes it ok.
Needless to say I was not able to get a word in. Jesus is the Way the Truth and the Life and no one comes to the Father except through Jesus was all I was able to quote.
After a while she left the table to get something . It was my opportunity to tell the Holy Spirit that I wasn’t doing this anymore . I told the Lord how I was tired of sharing the gospel and having negative reactions . Tired of not seeing anyone get convicted and saved. Tired of using His Word and not seeing anyone repent and turn to the only Saviour. With tears I told Him I had enough. It was over, no more sharing His truth in love from now on.
Moments later my child comeback . Her words to me were that I was isolating myself from everyone by my beliefs. That she loved me but that she did not agree with me or my self righteous attitude about what I believe. She added that because of my always wanting to seek God her father divorced me. (19 years ago).
Suddenly joy filled my heart. How true it is that we children of the living God are isolated. Sometimes in can be very lonely. The words of Jesus about the cost of being a disciple lifted me up .
Jesus tells us clearly in these verses:
If anyone comes to Me and does not hate his father and mother, wife and children, yes, and his own life also, he cannot be My disciple. And whoever does not bear his cross and come after Me, cannot be My disciple.”Luke 14: 26-27
In other words, being a disciple costs us everything. Could be our family , possessions or even our own life . We must be willing to lay it all down to follow Jesus.
To end the conversation she said we will have to agree to disagree.
On my way home I asked God to forgive me for wanting to give up. I said that I will continue to speak God’s Truth and share the gospel of Jesus no matter what happens to me as a result.
May God have mercy on my family and grant them repentance.
We can not save ourselves . Salvation is of the Lord. My heart’s desire and prayer to God for my family is that they may be saved.
Friend if you do not know Jesus as your Saviour you are headed for judgement.
We read in God’s Word:
And inasmuch as it is appointed for men to die once and after this comes judgment,”Hebrews 9:27
God is Holy we are sinners. God is a God of love but God is also a judge. He hates sin the Bible says that the wages of sin is death.
“For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.”Romans 6:23
“Therefore, we are ambassadors for Christ, as though God were making an appeal through us; we beg you on behalf of Christ, be reconciled to God.”
2 Corinthians 5:20